of late

I have these moments when I feel like I have no idea what I am doing or where I am heading. They are scary. They make me want to close myself off from the world.

I wasn't feeling great yesterday. We had planned to go over and see the floats from The Rose Parade, but I just didn't feel up to it. I was very disappointed.

And then I decided to read before going to bed and before I knew it, I was done with the book, but I couldn't believe my eyes when I looked over at the clock. It was 5am! It has been a while since I have done that. And of course it screws up the day ahead.

I turned on the radio and was further disheartened to hear about the livestock in Colorado that they worry may be frozen or starving to death because of all the recent snow. They were dropping hay in hopes to help any of the animals still out there, but it didn't sound good. I couldn't even imagine being a farmer and finding many or all of your cows dead after the snow melts.

Tomorrow we are off to the library. Our books are due. I have missed our outings to the library. Perhaps that will help with this mood.

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